Living in the Silence

Things have been quiet lately. I have been quiet lately. Sometimes I begin to wonder whether or not I am being too quiet, or perhaps am becoming apathetic. When I start to think this, I begin to realize that I have entered into a state of detachment. I have no expectations or attachments to any specific outcome. I am perfectly content just "being". And there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.

As a spiritual being having a human experience, I find myself in the place of moving closer and closer to Spirit. I feel this during my meditation. I wake up knowing I have just returned from Mystery School, which is a place of spiritual learning I first visited during sleep almost two years ago. I also am noticing that I am no longer becoming entangled in emotions and work very hard at not getting stuck in my mind. For me, as for many, these are the two biggest obstacles to maintaining my connection with Spirit.

These new places sometimes catch me unaware. When I no longer live in the drama and trauma of the Third Dimension, I am freeing myself up to ascend to the Fifth Dimension. But along with the freedom comes a sense of loss. Who am I if I am not getting caught up in emotions or thinking obsessively? How do I define myself now? How will others experience me as I am manifesting a paradigm shift that they know nothing about? Especially when those others are family and friends.

One answer that comes to me is that it doesn't matter. Nothing matters except God. To reach God, in my experience, it is imperative that I transcend the realms of emotion and mind. And by doing this, I go to a place that is truly beyond words. How can one describe merging with God by using mere words? There is no way in my experience that something that huge and all transcendent can be distilled into written or spoken words. And so, I find myself detached from things of the world, turning more and more inward and becoming more and more quiet. I stop judging myself as being apathetic and simply allow the Loving to envelop me. It is ALL God, and God is GOOD.

Namaste!

Never Mind

I have recently been struggling with the concept of "mind". On my meditation path, the mind is considered one of the realms that must be navigated in order to reach the soul level and beyond. Returning to Soul is returning home to God and our God-self, which is the ultimate goal for the person who ascribes to the belief that we are spiritual beings having a human experience.

Based on my own personal experience, as well as conversations with friends, I am learning that the mind tends to create obstacles to the process of returning to soul. It is a "trickster". In an effort to remain in control, the mind does everything in its power to keep us in the third dimension by throwing us into our emotions and by asking us to come up with explanations for everything that is happening in us, to us, around us, and through us. Both emotions and explanations cause us to focus on the lower realms. We tend to become attached to the need to know what is going on and why we feel the way we do. This becomes distracting noise that throws us off track.

So, what can we do to move beyond this? Although it is not an easy task, I believe we serve ourselves best by learning to detach from our feelings and our need to have an explanation for everything. One means to accomplish this is to turn everything over to God. Anything that is not of God is, after all, an illusion. Our human lives are merely temporary - Spirit's vehicle for manifesting a human experience. As we move toward ascension to the fifth dimension, we no longer need to focus on the human experience because we are moving back to Spirit and God. As we move toward the new paradigm, we learn to recognize our emotions as pointers to the holes in our soul that are in need of repair. Once we enter the new paradigm, we realize there is nothing at all that we need - we are complete in God and no longer are slaves to our mind and feelings. We can truly say, "never mind".

Namaste!

I AM THAT, I AM

I recently watched The Moses Code DVD. This was the second viewing and I found that I resonated quite well with it. For those of you that are unfamiliar with The Moses Code, the message is quite simple. God appeared to Moses in the form of a burning bush. Moses asked who was speaking to him. The answer - "I Am That I AM." The Moses Code emphasizes that the answer was truly, "I Am That, I Am". The comma being the missing "code" that changes the meaning from being the name of God to a statement that we are all One.

I am not certain I got that the first time, maybe I wasn't paying attention. But as I have been cementing myself more firmly into my God-hood or God-ness, I am finding myself resonating with this idea much more. After all, I believe in the oneness of everything and that we are all Sparks of the Divine so the "I Am That, I Am" statement makes sense to me. And since it makes sense, I have decided to take it on as a part of who I am. Or should I say, who I AM.

Even as I write this, I realize that the I AM consciousness is nothing really new and I have been living it for quite a while already. This confirms for me my belief that we know everything we need to know and our task is to remember. Maybe that is the reason I felt such a strong resonance with the message of "The Moses Code". I was being reminded of that which I already knew but perhaps let slip out of my consciousness for a while.

Things can become slippery when we lose sight of our connection to the Oneness of God. We become caught up in our emotions and our dualities and tend to forget our Divinity. We connect with our "stuff" and become caught up in fear. Then we lose sight of the most important knowing of all - the Loving of God. So, why do things get so slippery? Why are we unable to hold onto that oneness with God? Why is it so difficult to remain in that consciousness? I ask myself these questions repeatedly. I feel so wonderful when I am experiencing the Loving and the Light of God, yet I still spend more time seeking than experiencing.

The best answer that I am able to manifest is that I am still caught up in my "human experience". Yes, I am a very spiriutal being but I am also a human being. Thankfully, I am a human being very much into the process of awakening into my God-ness, so the lessons come a bit quicker these days. I am capable of seeing how my emotions and fears and experiences of the third dimension (also known as my "stuff") are manifesting to show me how to clear out old patterns and reach ever more toward the place in which God and I co-exist. This is the place where God and I meet and where I can truly see that I AM THAT, I AM!

Namaste!

Going Within

I feel as though I have been very quiet lately in the spiritual sense. Almost too quiet. I believe this is a function of having been too much in the world. It seems as though I have had to try on the "worldly" persona one more time in order to realize once and for all that it does not feel comfortable at all. And I realize now that this persona probably has never been comfortable. No wonder I have never quite felt as though I "fit in" anywhere.

As I see signs in my life that being too much in the world upsets my equilibrium, I find myself trying to find solutions toward restoring balance to my life. My solution has been to go inward and upward toward God - to remember that the most important thing in my world is my connection with God. More and more I am finding that place to be my comfort zone. When I go within, I can feel God's presence in my being and that feeling is wonderful. In that place, I can release myself from the place where I judge myself and try to figure things out and find reasons for everything. I can understand that nothing other than God is real and that everything real comes from God and God's Loving.

Now I understand that the reason my equilibrium has been off is that I have been feeling pulled more into the third dimension - the dimension of emotions, duality, and worldliness. This dimension no longer fits me. It is totally uncomfortable. I am connecting more and more with the fifth dimension, which is the place of IAM, unification, and oneness with God. I am feeling very strongly pulled to leave the third behind. The next challenge is to determine how to gracefully create a bridge for myself in order to attain the connection with the fifth dimension I am feeling so called to fully enter.

As I ask this question, the answer being given to me is "go within". By going within, the importance of the third dimensional, outer world, seems to fade significantly. From this place, I feel my connection to God and let everything else dissolve. I feel the Love of God, the Peace of God, and the Essence of God. And it feels wonderful!

Namaste!